A Little Life

From Goodreads:When four classmates from a small Massachusetts college move to New York to make their way, they're broke, adrift, and buoyed only by their friendship and ambition. There is kind, handsome Willem, an aspiring actor; JB, a quick-witted, sometimes cruel Brooklyn-born painter seeking entry to the art world; Malcolm, a frustrated architect at a prominent firm; and withdrawn, brilliant, enigmatic Jude, who serves as their center of gravity. Over the decades, their relationships deepen and darken, tinged by addiction, success, and pride. Yet their greatest challenge, each comes to realize, is Jude himself, by midlife a terrifyingly talented litigator yet an increasingly broken man, his mind and body scarred by an unspeakable childhood, and haunted by what he fears is a degree of trauma that he’ll not only be unable to overcome—but that will define his life forever.A Little Life had been sitting in my Kindle for awhile. I had bought it, on sale, awhile back after hearing …
“Ecstasy. From the Greek ekstasis. Meaning not what you think. Meaning not euphoria or sexual climax or even happiness. Meaning literally: a state of displacement, of being driven out of one’s senses.” —Jeffrey Eugenides

I Still Miss You Sometimes

A few weeks ago I was reading an article online. It was just a gossip, movie related article but after I finished reading it I immediately had this urge to text my friend Kevin to tell him about this article and about the Hollywood gossip I had gleaned from it.

And then I had to stop myself because I realized that I no longer speak to Kevin. In fact, it has been about seven years since I had last spoken to him and that last conversation we had was not very nice. In fact, if I remember correctly, it was a pretty nasty conversation when Kevin basically told me to go fuck myself because I hadn't responded quickly enough to his text message in which he had stated he
"wished he had cancer".

At that point, I had been friend's with Kevin for a number of years, and while most of the time our friendship was on an even keel, and I genuinely enjoyed his company, these temper tantrums were not something new. It was something that occasionally would pop up and make me feel absolu…